Self Exposure

I've taken up a new hobby. Exposing my under belly.

No that doesnt mean taking my cloths off. It means opening up.

I decided to try a few different avenues to do this too. I already like to write and sometimes I draw. even dabbled into painting and then there is sewing. But this time I am going to take up..... sensitivity.

How in the heck is she gonna do that? Ok, several ways. Helping people, giving and not expecting anything back in return, letting go of my rough exterior.

a. I went shopping.

b. I got a cat.

c. I read a story to my neighbors daughter on my front steps.

I've had a hard life but in alot of ways, I made it so. Call it getting old or mellowing, lately the shadows grow longer down the hallway.

I saw something today and it reminded me of myself. I had to chuckle too.

Ever see a pup that came from so many fathers it had this mixed up coloration all over its body?

Its ugly, noone wants him or plays with him. Sometimes I felt that way. Sometimes the colors mixed but separated. Theres clear defining lines.

So hey, I'm not the only smuck out there like this. Admission number one.

The Softer Side

Random acts of kindness...making an ole coot smile.

Recently I sat down and reread some of my blogs here. I admit the image I project doesnt quite portray the whole person. It got me to thinking. Could I name ten things that say something different about me, my charcter, my being. So I made the list. And I want to challenge you to do the same. And post it on your own blogs. I dont know a single soul out there in blog land, not personally and it may surprise me to know something different about you. So to my five little friends..I challenge YOU.

1. I like the color red.
2. I own several nice stylish dresses but seldom have a need to wear them.
3. I like kittens.
4. I would rather gaze at a candle flame than a roaring fireplace.
5. I like tough men who melt when I do.
6. I hate to be alone but am more then I care to admit.
7. I give hugs to my friends and kisses on the cheek.
8. I write love letters to noone in particular.
9. I like to play in mud.
10. I'd rather be cold than hot.

Candor

I admit to coming on strong and I am rough around the edges. I dont mince words and I speak my mind. I let few people inside my inner circle. You wanna know why? Think about this:

"Not everyone is welcome in my house. If I let everyone in then there wouldn't be anyone special".

There's a lesson in that. It makes it very plain who, what, when, where and how to catagorize or size up people you come in contact with. Oh yeah theres such a thing as being polite but who are you foolin? Who is benefiting from that? The way I see it, if more people were honest and up front with their feelings; mean what they say and say what they mean, we wouldnt have relationship problems with each other, other cultures and society in general.

Can anyone tell me WHY do we HAVE to be politically CORRECT? I liked Bill Maher. He said it like it was. Too many mamby-pamby whinning sniveling idiots out there that need to know how to live by your "word" and your "deeds" instead of taking a cowards way out to "apease the masses". Oh! don't even get me started on our involvement in the war in Iraq! Too many people wanted us to go in there with "guns ablazing" after 911. And when we didn't, what did they do? turn Bush into the sole cause for the war in the first place. Amazing...

In my book, respect is earned. That comes with showing me that you are an individual and you have a mind. Speak it. Show me what values you have. But most of all LIVE by what you believe in and never, EVER back down.

Let the special people in, keep the others out.